What has happened to my country? Why have fear, racism, isolationism won? Some golden vision of a Britain that never existed was sold, and is even now being reneged on. "We didn't exactly say that there wouldn't be any immigration..." I can't sleep and if I take stock of what I've eaten in the past 3 days it's been crisps, toast, beer and tea. I am European. I thought my children were going to grow up Europeans. Worst of all, there will likely be a second Scottish independence referendum. All I can do is cultivate my garden - including this rose with a fittingly French name - love my family, and be kind to other people. Wherever they originate.